irrationally embarrassing. 3.15.11.

Irrationally embarrassing moments are ones that shouldn't be too horribly embarrassing; they may not even go noticed. But these are things that I notice that I do that make me feel embarrassed for myself even if no one sees/notices/cares. I think them in my head+they make me laugh (usually). So I'll share. I wonder if the embarrassment is conveyed at all. Partake in my micro-shame, if you will.

I do this thing: if I'm sitting anywhere for an extended period of time, I curl my feet under myself+sit on them. Think virasana yoga pose, but in an "ergonomic" chair. It's a habit that I've has since I was a kid. I am squirmy+can't sit still long, so I sit on one leg, sit on the other, sit on both, sit regular+repeat. Not always in that order, but always moving in my seat. I can tell it makes people kinda uncomfy - like I'm bored or something. I can't help it. Seriously. I've tried. Sometimes my legs fall asleep so I try to keep it moving so they don't.

Today, I had to go to a meeting in SF. The meeting was about an hour, so I did my habitual leg rearranging. I stayed in one position for too long, I guess, +my legs had fallen asleep. At the end of the meeting, I looked down to grab my bag+my shoe (only one!) had fallen off sometime during the hour. From my mental calculation, I gather it'd been about 20 minutes. In 20 minutes I went from somewhat professional workerbee to meeting-time-shoe-kicker-offer.

People noticed, for sure.

When this happens, all you can do, really, is try to shake your legs awake+put your shoe back on like you meant to kick it off for the last 20 minutes or so. Or whatever.

I had on weird socks today, too.

Comments

[Mimi]

I do the SAME thing with my legs!

Sometimes I do this weird and gross (to other people i guess) thing where I cross my legs but.. cross it again with my feet. So my legs are doing this crazy spiral thing. I don't know. But people always stare :(

I never had the shoe-loss problem though.